I feel like shit

idk, I just do. maybe there's a lot of drama going on. or maybe because of the insecurities. but all I know and I'm 100% sure, I feel like shit. 

problem 1 : friends. 

I guess. maybe. idk. apparently I'm not close to the girls in my class. maybe I don't like them and they don't like me. or they see me no up so I'm with the guys now. 

because apparently some girls are not happy with the choices I make and the judgements I make. so I hang out more with the guys. and when I hang out with the guys, I'm always the only girl. and when that happens, I feel like an extra. are they really there to be my friend or hang out with me or they're just being nice and accept me since I'm basically a loner now. 

and honestly, I can't stand them at times. RONALD MOK AHEM. yes I know, we're good friends and all, but don't go overboard I guess. but I don't really mind that lol. 

problem 2 : attitude. 

my attitude is rather different now compared to last time. I've got 2 discipline case. and I heard that my whole class will get another one, which makes that 3.

and I talk back a lot. to teachers and friends. as long as you offend me, I shoot back. learn to deal with me I guess. 

problem 3 : judging. 

I'm being judged based on the clothes I choose to wear and the people I hang out with. apparently, you're not happy with the clothes I chose to wear and you call me a slut lol. and the way I'm think, did it offend you ? I'm definitely not sorry if I did. 

anyway, I'll blog more soon. not now. battery's dying and I'm still @ pasir ris and its 10.17pm. ughhh. anyway, bye I guess. 

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